Sick

Well I have been alittle under the weather for the past couple of days. Went to the doctor on Thursday and she said I had bronchitis and pneumonia!! Gave me 2 shots and 2 weeks worth of antibiotics. I am still sick. The nurse apparently didn't know how to give a shot. I have a huge bruise. My chest hurts and I can't seem to stop coughing. I am still working though, you know me, I'd die if I had to sit at home. But the rest might make me better sooner. I just don't know how much more I can take of this. All I done on Sunday was sleep. Josh watched the kids the whole day. I know I am still surprised by it. On another note, Payton had his first sleep over Saturday night. He has a cousin that is a few years older than him, but they get along very good. I invited him to stay all night, they had such a good time. My little man is getting so big. Gaw how time flies. Adison is trying to talk more and more. She can do it when she wants to but not when prompted to. Her favorite word though is Bryson. I am not kidding you that girl loves him. She gets so excited when she sees him. We better watch out for them 2 when they get older. LOL. Well I guess that is all the catch up I'm going to do for now.

The Road Not Taken

I love this and thought I'd share, enjoy

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both.
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Through as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I..
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Robert Frost

In-Laws

I know that everyone has those wonderful in-laws that they can call on for anything and they would come no questions asked, what happened to mine. Josh and I have been together for 8 years, married for 6 of them and his family still hates me with a passion. I have never done anything to them to make them feel this way. But they try to turn Josh against me, and even try turning Payton too. This is were my B***H attitude comes into play. First they call us bad parents to my face, then turn around and tell Josh that it was never said. And tell him I am just so hateful to them and have an attitude when I come up there. Ok first thing I don't go around them unless Josh is with me. I don't want to be around them. The first impression of me was that I was pretty much a gold-digger. I have worked all of my life pretty much, even at times had 3 jobs, not because I had to have because I wanted them. I like being able to spend money on something I want. Right now I have 2 jobs, again because I want them. Get over yourself. They keep it up and they are going to find out how bad and mean I really can be. So some words of wisdom to those are getting married, move as far away from them as you can!! lol I hope no one ever has to go thru this, it can really put a strain on a marriage.

6 years and counting!!!

So yesterday was Mother's Day, happy belated Mother's Day to all moms out there. I got the sweetest thing from Payton that he done at school. It talked about how tall I was which he thought I was 13 feet tall, and only weighed 30 lbs, lol. And I looked like a heart, it was just so sweet. Along with it being Mother's day it was also mine and Josh's anniversary. Yep we have been married for 6 years now. Which is an achievement in both of our eyes. We both never thought we'd never make it this long. Josh and I are very different in many ways and don't see eye to eye on alot of stuff. We got married when I was 17 he was 18 and 3 months later had our first child. I had to grow up really fast and never got to experience the normal teenage life. Josh is still working on growing up. He is doing better, but with all things it takes time and patients. Which neither I have. LOL. So on Saturday we were going to go out but I was sick and didn't feel like much of anything. So we just laid around the house. On Sunday morning Payton brought me a card in bed. I opened it and it was an anniversary card with a note inside. As I began to read it I got very teary-eyed. It was from Josh saying how he is still in love with me, oh it was just so sweet. And if you know Josh he is not sweet by any means. It was really heart felt and still gives me goose bumps every time I think about it. They always say if you can make it past 6 years your in the clear, lets hope so. I remember why I fell in love with him 8 years ago and why I am still in love with him. True love concurs all. Hope you all have a blessed day.

Update

I started this thing to update my weight loss. I haven't really kept up with it really well. So here is the newest update on how everything is going. I am down to a respectable 130. I still have 15 lbs to lose to get to my ideal weight. I haven't stopped smoking, yet. That is really hard. I am doing really well with cutting back though. I have made an appointment with a plastic surgeon to go in for a consult. I have imperfections with my body that I am not happy with that can be fixed with money. LOL. It is not that I hate my body in any way, it just won't be fixed with exercise. It happens when you have children. I have even talked about going to Mexico to have my work done, but I have found a plastic surgeon in Cookeville, and he does nice work. I'll let you know how it goes.

Just my luck!

So most of you know that I have been wanting a new car. Josh has told me that we will have to wait for another 6 months before that happens. So I thought maybe that if I just so happened to wreck my car, I might just get a new one. So today as I went to lunch so woman that was not paying any attention almost hit me, but didn't. =( As I was on my way home from getting Adison a stupid cat got brave and decided to try and make it across the road. It didn't. I am the worst driver that I know and can admit that. And I'm not going to wreck dodging a cat. Especially with my daughter in the car. Well the cat didn't make it, and my car has battles wounds now. It took out a chuck of my front bumper!!!!! So now I really need a new car.

Venting

Ok there are alot of things that bother me. But only 4 things come to mind that really just get under my skin. #1 All of my friends know exactly what I mean. DO NOT by no means in this world think that you are better than me!!!!! And don't think that I have the worst marriage ever, and you are sitting high on a fridgin pedastool. I know that mine and Josh's marriage isn't perfect by no means, WE CAN ADMIT THAT!! And the reason why we are still together is not because we have 2 kids, its because we truly love one another and want to be together. So get the f**k off your high horse and come back down to the real world, because your not fooling anybody. #2 People that talk shit about stuff they know nothing about. DON"T TALK ABOUT MY FAMILY! You have no idea what they are going thru with their own personal stuff. They try to give the best life for their children and you dare knock them down for that. That is so childish. When are you going to grow up! People make mistakes in their lives that we have no control of. I believe that God has a plan for everyone, and the mistakes that you make turn out to be a blessing. # 3 I only speak my mind. I don't try to please anyone but myself. I have no reason to make you think better of me. I do hold grudges. That is one of my many flaws. And don't let go so easy. If I don't like you, trust that you will know I don't like you. DON"T ASSUME ANYTHING. If you hear it out of my mouth, then you'll know. So don't run your mouth about me to anyone, especially if you can't say it to my face. #4 If you have a bad relationship, I don't want to hear about it. Everyone knows who this is directed at. I do not want to hear your drama about how you got a pshyco on your hands when you are always running back to them. That is your own fault. Realize that please.





Just alot of things have been on my mind lately, and needed a way to get them out of my head. So I hope you enjoy my little vent. THANKS